[ Don't you sigh at his earnest attempts to get those idiots together! ]
Shi Qingxuan expressed his worry that Ming Yi is only interested in sleeping with them while Wind Master is a woman, not when a man. I asked Black Water and he said he is attracted to men [ Xie Lian has no fear, clearly, ] but he wouldn't tell me their main features. I wanted to have something more solid to tell Shi Qingxuan, to give him some focus. He's so upset, especially after I told him how wonderful you are.
[ Perhaps not the way Xie Lian saw when he watched Water Master's decapitation or the broken limbs of Wind Master later. He desperately wants to avoid those things coming to pass. ]
Shi Qingxuan doesn't believe he's loveable, San Lang. I know he can be loud sometimes, but he really just wants someone to care for him. He expects so little and is so surprised when he gets anything.
[ or perhaps he'll do it anyway, but it will hurt all of them even more. hua cheng can't say he's confident that there's anything in the universe that could sway he xuan from the path of revenge he's pursued for so long now, just the way there was nothing that could have swayed hua cheng from his pursuit of xie lian. ]
You love him, don't you? It's good that he has a friend like you to care for him.
He's my best friend. Whenever I need to talk to him he comes over, and he listens too. You wouldn't think it from the amount he chatters but he does his best when thinking of solutions, I appreciate how genuinely he tries.
He's still a little scared of you, you know. He can barely say your name without going wide-eyed, when we talk about you.
I'm sure I deserve his poor opinion of me, but you should know I haven't spoken to him since our arrival here, and I have no intention to hurt him. And I will continue to give him as wide a berth as he desires—only let me know if you intend to bring him to our rooms, and I'll make myself scarce until he departs.
San Lang! [ !!!!! ] I like it when you show how you feel. It doesn't have to be considered romantic by other people, if it's your true emotions that's what I want. That's what I care about! So you can be selfish, it's alright.
I showed you before, how ugly and hateful I can be. When we fought in the other Roost. All it did was hurt you.
[ and frankly hua cheng would sooner destroy his own ashes than hurt xie lian like that again, least of all on purpose. he can't do anything about how this place manipulates them sometimes, but he can at least keep himself under control otherwise. ]
It's... difficult. For me. To share like that, the things that frighten me, the things I feel... and to know that it won't change anything. Maybe that's silly. I'm not very good at this, as you've surely understood by now.
You really worried I might bring someone back to our room? I could never. I love the lanterns and the red of it all, it's like being home again with you.
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He hasn't, and I haven't asked. I try not to meddle in his affairs unless invited to do so.
[ for example by being asked to lend him money!... which he likely doesn't need in the resort, at least not from hua cheng. ]
Does the Wind Master know you're acting on his behalf?
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Shi Qingxuan expressed his worry that Ming Yi is only interested in sleeping with them while Wind Master is a woman, not when a man. I asked Black Water and he said he is attracted to men [ Xie Lian has no fear, clearly, ] but he wouldn't tell me their main features. I wanted to have something more solid to tell Shi Qingxuan, to give him some focus. He's so upset, especially after I told him how wonderful you are.
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And if He Xuan is attracted to Shi Qingxuan? Then what?
[ there's a pause, where hua cheng considers speaking his thoughts aloud, but he reconsiders and closes his mouth again.
after a moment, ] You should be truthful with him, gege. He'll come to expect too much otherwise.
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[ Perhaps not the way Xie Lian saw when he watched Water Master's decapitation or the broken limbs of Wind Master later. He desperately wants to avoid those things coming to pass. ]
Shi Qingxuan doesn't believe he's loveable, San Lang. I know he can be loud sometimes, but he really just wants someone to care for him. He expects so little and is so surprised when he gets anything.
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[ or perhaps he'll do it anyway, but it will hurt all of them even more. hua cheng can't say he's confident that there's anything in the universe that could sway he xuan from the path of revenge he's pursued for so long now, just the way there was nothing that could have swayed hua cheng from his pursuit of xie lian. ]
You love him, don't you? It's good that he has a friend like you to care for him.
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He's still a little scared of you, you know. He can barely say your name without going wide-eyed, when we talk about you.
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[ His sweet husband. ]
Please be more selfish with me, I don't mind it at all.
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[ the bewilderment is probably obvious in hua cheng's tone. wym more selfish when he's already doing such a mid job of being a good husband lmao ]
I mind it, gege. I ask far too much of you already, how can you tell me to be more selfish?
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I showed you before, how ugly and hateful I can be. When we fought in the other Roost. All it did was hurt you.
[ and frankly hua cheng would sooner destroy his own ashes than hurt xie lian like that again, least of all on purpose. he can't do anything about how this place manipulates them sometimes, but he can at least keep himself under control otherwise. ]
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You really worried I might bring someone back to our room? I could never. I love the lanterns and the red of it all, it's like being home again with you.
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[ and there is nothing hua cheng wouldn't do, nothing he wouldn't give up if it meant his husband was satisfied. ]
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