San Lang! [ !!!!! ] I like it when you show how you feel. It doesn't have to be considered romantic by other people, if it's your true emotions that's what I want. That's what I care about! So you can be selfish, it's alright.
I showed you before, how ugly and hateful I can be. When we fought in the other Roost. All it did was hurt you.
[ and frankly hua cheng would sooner destroy his own ashes than hurt xie lian like that again, least of all on purpose. he can't do anything about how this place manipulates them sometimes, but he can at least keep himself under control otherwise. ]
It's... difficult. For me. To share like that, the things that frighten me, the things I feel... and to know that it won't change anything. Maybe that's silly. I'm not very good at this, as you've surely understood by now.
You really worried I might bring someone back to our room? I could never. I love the lanterns and the red of it all, it's like being home again with you.
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I showed you before, how ugly and hateful I can be. When we fought in the other Roost. All it did was hurt you.
[ and frankly hua cheng would sooner destroy his own ashes than hurt xie lian like that again, least of all on purpose. he can't do anything about how this place manipulates them sometimes, but he can at least keep himself under control otherwise. ]
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You really worried I might bring someone back to our room? I could never. I love the lanterns and the red of it all, it's like being home again with you.
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[ and there is nothing hua cheng wouldn't do, nothing he wouldn't give up if it meant his husband was satisfied. ]
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