Should I? What's the difference between being worshipped and being an idol?
[ because hua cheng, he hasn't yet had the talk with jun about their idol school, and he's never actually asked rinne exactly what being an idol entails—so when he hears "idol," he thinks of an icon of worship, someone or something celebrated, with believers who prostate themselves before it, etc. etc.
...which, really, isn't actually all that different from being a pop idol, probably, so maybe he's more on the money than he knows. ]
And for what would you seek me out, were I to become an idol?
[He says easily, and maybe that was the most honest thing he's said about himself to Hua Cheng in a while.]
I wouldn't call an idol someone I worship, though I guess for some people, they do. Idols are just people who are chasin' their dreams by making others happy, after all.
Before I knew what idols were, I thought I had no choice but to live the life someone else told me to. Doin' the same thing everyday, every night, with nothing ever changing? It was so boring I thought I was gonna live and die without meaning, y'know?
[ it is rare, that rinne answers hua cheng's questions honestly and without humor. hua cheng appreciates it, for the opportunity that it is—a chance to understand rinne a little better, even if he isn't being fully invited inside. ]
I can understand that.
[ obviously, being a ghost king is quite different than being an idol, but hua cheng can at least relate to the fear of living a life devoid of meaning, and to the desire to have the freedom to choose that meaning for yourself. ]
Do you feel that you've found the meaning you were looking for, now that you are an idol?
Hm. I suppose that's often the case, that the reality we grow into is less rosy than what we imagine in our youths.
[ hua cheng blinks slightly when rinne pushes himself up to look down at him, just for a moment before he processes what rinne has said. once he's understood, a grin spreads slowly over his face—not his usual cocky smirk, but a gentler, more genuine expression of happiness that very few ever get to see from him. ]
You have a kind heart, xiao mifeng. To find companionship even in a monster like me.
[ he's joking, mostly. ]
Even though this place is terrible, I'm also grateful to have met you.
[Like, Rinne knows comparing man with anger issues to ghost king is not the best thing, but Rinne thinks they're pretty similar. Rinne just hasn't lived long enough for it.]
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[ because hua cheng, he hasn't yet had the talk with jun about their idol school, and he's never actually asked rinne exactly what being an idol entails—so when he hears "idol," he thinks of an icon of worship, someone or something celebrated, with believers who prostate themselves before it, etc. etc.
...which, really, isn't actually all that different from being a pop idol, probably, so maybe he's more on the money than he knows. ]
And for what would you seek me out, were I to become an idol?
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[He says easily, and maybe that was the most honest thing he's said about himself to Hua Cheng in a while.]
I wouldn't call an idol someone I worship, though I guess for some people, they do. Idols are just people who are chasin' their dreams by making others happy, after all.
Before I knew what idols were, I thought I had no choice but to live the life someone else told me to. Doin' the same thing everyday, every night, with nothing ever changing? It was so boring I thought I was gonna live and die without meaning, y'know?
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I can understand that.
[ obviously, being a ghost king is quite different than being an idol, but hua cheng can at least relate to the fear of living a life devoid of meaning, and to the desire to have the freedom to choose that meaning for yourself. ]
Do you feel that you've found the meaning you were looking for, now that you are an idol?
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But it was a lot of fun the last few months. Then this place happened, and I met ya.
[He turns to him, even as he pushes himself up to a sitting position, just to get a better look at Hua Cheng.]
So I can't say it ended too badly.
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[ hua cheng blinks slightly when rinne pushes himself up to look down at him, just for a moment before he processes what rinne has said. once he's understood, a grin spreads slowly over his face—not his usual cocky smirk, but a gentler, more genuine expression of happiness that very few ever get to see from him. ]
You have a kind heart, xiao mifeng. To find companionship even in a monster like me.
[ he's joking, mostly. ]
Even though this place is terrible, I'm also grateful to have met you.
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[Like, Rinne knows comparing man with anger issues to ghost king is not the best thing, but Rinne thinks they're pretty similar. Rinne just hasn't lived long enough for it.]
In my eyes, yer just a man in love.